im not happy,
im not sad.
i just cant find the exact word to express my emotions right now.
why must you do this.
when those words were like atomic bombs falling on me.
needles piercing through me.
yet i still have to look like im okay.
no, im not okay.
it seems like im not being able to concentrate.
i can forget things that happen just 1 minute ago.
my soul seems to be floating away.
maybe that's me.
maybe i've been trying so hard to rmb every single thing.
but now that somethings had happened,
i'd rather forget eveything...
even simple things like smiling, such as crying.
im not sure how anymore.
and yes,
im still trying hard to be back to how i use to.
smile to every single thing,
even if it takes me to kill a billion cells;
you must be happy.
Friday, January 18, 2008
11:33 PM
seriously forgot what happened days ago.
shit. my memory is seriously failing me. D:
fck.
maybe will think and post next time.
went to ngee ann poly.
walk walk.
den took 74 home.
prepared and meet anna and sy for nyp's concert.
watch liao den walk to amk central's mac.
den went home with sy.
she coming my hse stay.
happy birthday yanjun.
sorry for not putting it up big.
im not feeling that great right now.
maybe i will change this post next time.
well,
sorry for the really brief post,
im not in the mood to do so.
because someone lied to me.
yeah, maybe you guys would think.
"c'mon it's just a lie, it's no big deal"
but to me, maybe it's not just a lie.
maybe it's something more,
maybe it's something less.
yet all i want to know this is just a dream.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
8:01 PM
just for laughs :))
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my leg vs guang liang's!!!
8:00 PM
made up my mind.
byebye.
7:56 PM
went to co today.
:(( saw things i dun wna see.
heard things i dun wna hear)):
fck it*
extremely boring lo. D:
haiya!!!!
den got something happen.
knnbccb.
nb lahh. fuck you.
Monday, January 14, 2008
7:06 PM
monday.............................
boringgggggggg.
hahas.
went to eat ichiban sushi after school!! :))
hees, wo men gen qian guo bu qu.
hahas... ^^
blablabla.
den so bored, so we went back school...
reach ard 630++
so we decided, if ppl ask why we are back,
we gna say " late meh?? early lo... i scared i tml late mah."
hahas, very stupid right???
lols, so we went back to find jc and aaron.
ass and i wna stay in school!!! lols.
camp there seems so funnnn.... lols. :))
den jiu go home lo...
so tired, slept at 9!!! ^^
well, when i thought u are back,
you are gone again. :(
1:02 AM
飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天跟海之间那条界线
慢慢的走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天
我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你
兰花掠过沙滩变静
我又看见我们的脚印
如果遇见幸福的机率
有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你
我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你
终于发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你
12:58 AM
sunday!!!!
lols, sian leis.... going to sch tml le.
fck it**
slept for 11 hours!!! :)
den sleep till 2.
ass ask me to meet her at 330...
so i chiong to prepare.
lols....
den pass her the books that i buy for her.
hees. :))
went to amk hub!!!
buy clips and earrings!!!
den went to NEW YORK to eat!!!
hehes, actually wna go watch movie de.
but no nice shows....
ass want me to watch " one miss call"
siao lo... but end up nvr lah...
cause i scared mah... thanks qin ai de. hahas.
den we ate at new york.
cheese balls, calamari rings, pumpkin soup and mudpie with ice cream. :)
full lo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas.
den timmy come and help us clear...
lols. thanks ahh :))
den jiu go home lo...
timmy pei me home.
we sit bus half way den feel like walking home...
so we got off the bus....
lols.
walk walk walk... den got alot of puddles.
so timmy piggy backed me.
lols. so nice of him right?? lols.
but when he put me down, my legs like jelly lah.
hahas... we piggy back me for 2- 3 busstops lo..
hehes. fun lo, den we walk everybody let us past.
hees. fun leis.........................................
pei him wait for bus, den go home!!!
hees.
talk to him for for like 4 hours and counting....
hees, hp bill burst liao lo....
:((
hees. :D
he's back
so should i be happy or sad.
i remembered few days ago,
i waited for like super long, yet nothing comes back.
but now, he like so good to me.
should i go watch a movie with him??
12:20 AM
went out with yj and vernon!
hees, vernon and i went to buy books at kovan first,
lols... but cant find much.
so we went to bras besah to meet yj.
went there got quite lotsa books lo.
hees. :)
den yj so xia lan lo.
hahas. den she went to eat new york.
vernon and i went to eat yoshinoya... lols.
talk talk talk.
den meet yj again....
went to orchard tangs...
actually is see my things de lo...
end up is see her things. =.=
hahas, she jialat lo....
must buy her that $77 shiseido 2 way cake.
ex lo. :(
hees... den went to yj's hse to wait for my mum....
cause 11 plus le...
den on the bus something happen lo.
very funny de. hahas.
the guys are like so cartoon lah...
hehes. :))
posted on 13 january
Friday, January 11, 2008
9:20 PM
hais...
today qin ai de kna caught lo...
:(( sadded.
den yj and i waited for her lo.
hees... see, we so good.
lols. :))
den timmy and andy showed us the fainting game.
lols.
timmy did it on andy and nicholas.
hahas. we went into the boys toilet. =x
hehes.
den when sy okay,
we went to prata hse to look for junchai and ppl.
hees... waited till the rain stops.
den they went home.
yj jc and i went to go sing song!!
hahas. fun lo...
sing till 10 plus.
den go xiang gang cha can ting.
drink some stuffs and talk talk. lols.
until 11 plus twelve.
hehes, in sch u lo!!! =.=
funfun. :)
posted on 13 january
Thursday, January 10, 2008
8:57 PM
pe today.
:((
2.4!!!
run till heh heh chuan.
lols... very long bo run liao.
hahas.
like can die like that lo.
hees.
after school,
den stayed in class do hmw.
found out something astounding!
hees, i think it's possible lo. ^^
other country's flower smells better than vanda miss joaquim.
hehes.
posted on 13 january.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
8:28 PM
歌手：twins
LYRIC:
(sa)天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着
(g)可是我不快乐
因为看见
他脸上的笑
是很勉强的
(sa)我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
(sa)爱情是模糊的
可怜的是
没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人
都是受害者
(sa)当爱情陷在危险边缘
(g)是否都会伤痕累累
(合)是否都会苦不堪言
(合)爱情教会我们都放不下
8:14 PM
sian...
miss balan and mr ong not here today,
:(
4 periods free!!!
den go down canteen for 1 period,
mr fam wanted to take over the other 2 periods.
sian... tired lo.
den when we were doing our own stuff,
that donald duck ask us to greet mrs lim.
nabeh la, he's like sucking up to her lo.
KNS.
den 1 period, mr fam left us in the class.
yj told me something again.
aiya, shouldnt have said lo...
now i so worried lah,
wondering will anything happen to him.
sian...
cant stop thinking over what she said.
hais.
prays that nothing happen to him bah.
* clasps my hands together and hope for the best.
after school took so many crazy pictures...
but i dun dare post.
hahas, scared prem come spotcheck us tml.
:((
hees.
junchai ahh~ jiayou oh!
hehes. :))
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
5:02 PM
school was okay today!
idiot lo, mrs selva keep keeping an eye on me.
sian lah.. :(
so damn bored and tired in school.
wondering far far away in between lessons.
gosh, that gotta stop.
okay, im beginning to miss your messages.
alright, i know i have to stop.
i cant carry on.
yet it hurts so much to send you that sms ytd.
wonder what were my thoughts when i was struggling with my own emotions.
guess you didnt learn that in your "school " bah.
my tears flowed uncontrollably when i was typing it.
maybe because i was too angry with myself, for making a wrong choice.
i duno what i want now.
:(
back to you?
i gotta smile as life still carries on.
Monday, January 07, 2008
10:12 PM
i duno why.
but maybe, i just wouldnt dare to know the answer
maybe it's not because i dont believe him.
it's just that i cant imagine, what if he have been lying all this while.
he ruined his impression once. i dun wan it to happen again.
i'd rather choose another alternative.
maybe i should just walk away,
at least i will still have a quite good impression on him.
byebye,
maybe this would be somehow,
better for the both of us.
you dont have to continue lying
i dun have to put up with this crap.
although i know it will be unfair to you,
cause i didnt even get the facts right, and i blamed you already.
but i tried telling myself to believe you,
yet i cant help it.
maybe sometimes, things you do in the past will always be there,
i cant just pretend nothing happened before.
i cant pretend not knowing that i nearly lost my life all thanks to you.
but i did tried to get over those unpleasant stuffs.
but i cant get my minds right on path today.
my mind seems to wonder away.
thinking of only 2 questions.
" is he bluffing me again"
the 2nd question, maybe ass and yj would noe bah.
i really cant help wondering off after what she said.
i cant afford to have all these nonsense anymore.
i dont think i can withstand the shock.
maybe just backing out would seriously be better,
isnt it so?
you are the first guy,
i think i would be able to put down the past for.
but this time, i think im wrong. AGAIN.
9:17 PM
oooh :(
weekends over!
now study again... sian.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
actually today go meet baohui de lo.
den so suay! got remedial.
f* lo.
den after that go buy ss
actually sy wna go watch 27 dresses.
but she blur blur lo.
24 jan see till 24 dec.
hahas. =.=
den we went to mac! eat and talk.
hahas.
ASS, YOU GOTTA UNDERSTAND ME MORE!!!!
hehes.
den she pei me to the busstop near her house,
we both have our problems.
problems, which makes us goes nuts.
yanjun too. :( ke lian lo.
hehes. but something good,
we will always be there for each other bah :)
hehes, told her what i dreamt abt.
so cartoon lo... :)
let nature takes it's course bah.
what is yours, will always be.
is that fate?
Sunday, January 06, 2008
9:14 PM
went for my cousin's gathering.
played mahjong!!!
hehes.
daddy win 100++ yeah! :)
den my cousin bring me go play pool.
:((
lousy luh, i still so lousy!!! :((
den go home lo.
eat lotsa stuffs :))
aaaaah.
my bro is such a pain.
f* off luh.
hope someone hits u hard so u can wake up.
b* . knn.
Saturday, January 05, 2008
11:59 PM
my interesting day, it's gna unfold!hehe.
=.= lame...
the clinic!
cant really see the name. lousy cam!
the menu. :)
bro's pumpkin soup!yummy :D
fried mushrooms.
mushroom soup :)
MINE!!!
green apple FLAVOUR candy floss.
see, mr ong! i rmb what u teach okay. hahas!
dad's chicken.
but we shared all the food lo.
bro's steak!
mum's bbq pork ribs. :)
my sausages!wrapped with bacon and CHEESE:))
THE FOOD!!!
forget to take a pic of this:( rootbeer float.only remembered when it's finishing!!
sadded. D:
11:34 PM
went to amk hub around 9 plus for dinner!!
hees.
NEW YORK new york.
lols. :))
eat lotsa lotsa food!!!
hehes :) satisfied lo.
pictures up later!
:D
7:42 PM
dreamt of something really weird last night.
i want to continue the dream, yet afraid to do so.
ass, i dreamt of you too.
i cant say it out, i suppose?
cause my dreams are really true,
especially when im in it. :(
sian, slept for 15 hours and im still tired.
kns.
went to eu yan sang for treatment today.
$73.81.
so expensive lo.
got my mc too!!! hehes.
it says, anything that got to do with my wrist joint, i cant do.
including push ups for pe!!!
she actually wna excuse me from pe,
but i dun wan. hahas. cause ltr i will b vry bored lo...
:)
troubled over that idiotic dream.
do i want it to happen?
sorry for neglecting you.
my horoscope says i have to do so.
:(
Friday, January 04, 2008
6:53 PM
finally weekends.
totally worn out,
super tired. :(
cca exhibition!
felt so fucked up can,
knn.
dun ask why.
den played drums.
totally is sian de lo...
lucky the drums and the sec 1 cheer me up lo.
they so cute lah. hahas.
from sec 1b de...
hahas. :D
den go home lo.
tired lah, ah ben pei me home.
hahas. :)
Thursday, January 03, 2008
9:01 PM
HEES.
school is alright today lo!!!
hees. :D
pe was height and weight lo.
sadded :(
fat liao. D:
grrrrrr.
hehes.
den after school,
went out with sy and yj...
go walk walk,
eat mos burger!! :D
yummy....
hees. walk awhile jiu go home le...
sy need to go back dance :(
hees.
boring lo...
ppl's been talking abt our same bags.
hees. many ppl!!!
even those aunties in mos burger. x)
lols.
bro went for orientation!!!
oh yes, so shiok lo...
hehes.
the com is MINE!!! :D
well,
why must you
x. smoke
x. drop out
:((
hais, i seriously considering carrying it on.
but you are still, sweet ^^
8:52 PM
see, i told you i was gna upload it today!
hahas. :D
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
10:23 PM
pictures
will be up
tomorrow!!!!
hees.
cause sadly, i need to wake up at 545 tml...
and have to slp early :(((
so tml lo...
hehes.
blablabla,
it's bee so long since i receive this kinda msg.
feels so sweet lah. :D
heeeeees, :DDDDDDD
cant help smiling okay! ^^
awwww ; zhaojie's falling in love soon.
hehes
10:14 PM
hehes.
first day of school lo.
super NERD. :(
ppl say im cute in specs!!!
aaaah, bu yao lahhh...
hahas.
anyway, think eng gna improve when ms balan teach!
that's a good thing lo. :D
mrs nathan also!!! humananities no need scared liao.
hahas.
but sian leis... tml got pe.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.D:
suay lo.
went library for discussion on the grp work!!!
say huli and his classmate,
his classmate is cute luhh.
and clever too okay!!!
hahas.
&&& most importantly,
we come from the same primary school...
awwww. x)
hahas.
den went kfc with them
and home sweet home lo.
hees.
so happy today...
blablabla, he's so.....
p.s. there's no small words in this post,
so ass ah, dun bother okay??
lols. :)
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
7:34 PM
If you've developed a more-than-friends relationship with someone, think about taking it to the next level. That doesn't mean infusing it with heavy-duty commitment. Perhaps this pairing seeks more levity and fun.
hmm,
what it means huh??
i dun wna fall in love yet lah.
D:
6:42 PM
went out with yj on sunday!!wear this....
played pool with this too...
it's so wrong.... =.=
steamboat on new year's eve,tt's why i need to be home by 630!
the famale stuffs.
in the bag! :)
we played pool here...
didnt noe i always go there eat laksa de. hahas
rojak and laksa!!!
the extreme queue.
love ya! :)
6:31 PM
went bugis with
aaron junchai guoming weitong yanjun and siying...
hahas.
den have to reach home at 630.
sian...
only go out less than 2 hours.
sian lo...
den yj pull me out!
went out with alex shaun and lester.
lester joined in awhile later.
played pool with alex and shaun...
they so pro can...
hahas. i so lousy. :(
but i got improve lo...
not is only i duno how to hit black ball...
means i lose to yj by that black ball.
hahas...
got improve leis!!!!
so happy luh.
but alex said something while i was playing...
you need ruler anot?
which is like what aaron said lo.
so qiao right?
hahas.
den we went tpy eat le jiu go home.
went yj hse ard 3 plus.
hehes.
so heng lo, can sneak outta the hse.
hahas.
den yj and wy quarrelled again....
blablabla~~~
and slept at 8 plus
woke up at 12 plus den go orchard straight away!!!!
go buy my bra... hehes.
alot colour lo...
so happy. hahas.
but 1 colour dun have my size...
sadded.
spent around $160+++
lols....
home sweet home!
im trying to get u outta my mind.
we cant be tgt, we cant.
tml school reopen le lo.
so sian lah!!!!!!!!
acting nerd...
gna wear specs to school tml...
hahas. :D
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